The Business of Being Born Message Board

I have just finished watching your film and was very moved by the sincerity of the home births. I found myself sobbing after seeing the experience that I wanted to have so much for myself. I had every intention of doing a natural childbirth and ended up having two breech babies and two c-sections. My second c-section was a horrifying experience so much so that I did not want to have any more children. The day of the c-section I was prepped for surgery and my epidural did not take. I told them I could feel the toe prick but they proceeded anyway. I ended up feeling the scalpel to my tummy and I could not get them to believe me that I could feel everything. They just repeatedly told me that it was natural to feel pressure. They seemed to have forgotten that I had done the c-section before and that I was communicating that my body was experiencing pain! Finally I did get some relief just as they were stitching me up. The doctor came in my recovery room and whispered an apology in my ear. In a way I was glad to experience the pain I felt that that was the closest to the real thing that I could experience. I was emotionless the first time because of the drugs. My husband appreciated seeing my emotion the second c-section. But still I was terrified to be pregnant again. 8 years later I found myself pregnant with my 3rd. I was determined to have this baby naturally but because I hit the magical old age of 35 and had two c-sections previously with two breech babies, my doctor did not recommend it. I was truly disappointed but I did have the best pregnancy and c-section with my third (new doctor and hospital). I was more educated this time around and knew myself and my body better. I did not plan to watch the movie tonight but it happened that way and today we celebrate the birth of my son who is 2 years old. It seemed appropriate to share my story on this website today. Thank you for creating a real experience in this movie. I am blessed to have 3 amazing children. Happy Birthday Jaxon!